Depression is a beast. It comes and goes as it pleases and with it certain personality characteristics. Or at least that’s how it is for me. I seem to become a completely different person. If I’m going through a bout of depression I get the usual symptoms but my entire mindset seems to shift. My perspective changes. My rationale changes. And then I wake up and feel fine. It’s kind of like a sh*tty hulk except instead of changing into a big green guy you turn into a Debbie downer, (worst super hero ever).
The strangest part is how drastic the changes are. For me, when I’m not depressed I’m full of hope. I’m eager to live and succeed and see what the future has in store. When I’m depressed I’m convinced life itself is just plain stupid and that it really doesn’t mean anything.
What’s so frustrating is the lack of consistency. It’s like a car wreck, you never leave your house expecting someone to rear-end you. It’s the same with depression. You might wake up in a great mood then suddenly, in the middle of the day, you’ll decide you hate everything. Really, life?
Like with other mental disorders it is really easy to feel like no one understands what you’re going through. And, in truth, it seems that is usually the case. Keeping that in mind it is important to reach out to others who have gone through or who may even be going through it as well. This will help you feel less isolated and may even let you vent to someone. Trust me when I say that that is important. Even if they can’t solve your problem having someone to talk about your problems to will help alleviate some of your feelings of isolation which will lift some of the burden.
All mental disorders are their own beasts but depression is the biggest monster sometimes. No one likes feeling hopeless and absolutely no one enjoys hating themselves. If you think someone close to you might feel depressed try to reach out to them. That can make a huge difference for them. Even if you can’t relate to how they feel at least make yourself available and don’t downplay it. Seriously. Not only is that a dick move but that can make things 1000x worse.